The world is still moving. People are going on about their lives. Laughing, talking, planning their day. As if nothing has happened. To them all is well. For me, all is not well. Life came to a screeching, sound deafening halt on Dec. 22, 2016. Yup, the day my Dodo died. What!? Wait!? Did I just say he died? Because I have no proof of that! All I have is the word of someone telling me that he died. That and the silence of my phone. It's suppose to ring every other day or so. It hasn't rang in 12 days now. Who knew silence could be so loud!!! Well, I'm here to tell you that it is so loud it hurts! Why is it so damn loud?
Yesterday was the 1st of January. A new year. We would have brought in on the phone, talking about the old days and the parties Mom and Daddy would have.... all the people coming and going out of the house.... awww the good ole days. The mash potato fights, the hose being drug in through the kitchen window to clean up said potato fight! We would laugh so hard we would be crying... tears of joy and happiness. Now the tears are of sorrow and sadness. A sadness that is so all encompassing. I can't keep this up any more. I miss him so much. Now what? What do I do now?
For the love of God someone please tell me how to do this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel so lost, so alone.....
And that damn sun came up again!
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