So here I am writing to you again. I'm headed back home again. We're gonna spread your ashes in the Mississippi, this time with a whole lot less stress. So why am I so stressed? I quit my job of 7 1/2 + years and starting a new one when I get back. Mmm, yeah that could cause a bit of stress. New jobs, so much to learn... We are spreading your ashes and I'm afraid the boys will show up and cause some trouble. Oh hell yeah, major stress there!! My heart hurts Pete, psychically hurts.
Let's face it Dodo, I'm never going to get over the fact that you left me behind. You weren't supposed to do that you know. My big brother was supposed be around to protect me and guide me. Because well you know your baby sister makes stupid decisions sometimes. Where the hell are you Dodo!? Tonight I need you. Having panic attacks and I don't know why. Why did God take you so soon?
I have so much to tell you every day! I just want to hear your voice. I don't think I ever got the chance to tell you this, but your voice was my favorite sound in the world. All I have left is a tiny sound bite. I'll take it. It's your voice....
I miss hid gruff voice too! He was a wonderful man that no other man can replace. He is watching over you with love and admiration for all you accomplished since he left.
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It's hard mom. I know. I doubt that I will ever heal from him passing and leaving so soon as well. U barley make it through the day everyday. I might tell u I'm fine. But honesty, I'm not. But we have to just take it day by day. We will never heal completely, but we will never forget (Gator) uncle boll.
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