Valentine's Day. Once again it's another holiday without you. I think about you so much.

The kids went to Mardi Gras last night. They sent me pictures, this one picture was of you, they took you to Mardi Gras with them. I find that hysterical, I think you would've liked it actually.  

I have an appointment today. To see a person who will help me cope with losing you.   I hope she does magic because seems to me that's about all there is that  will help me cope with loosing you.  I hope she has patience with me. This could take a very long time.

 I wish you were here because I have other things I need to talk to you about, like my heart.  They tell me I have a heart murmur.  They want me to wear a heart monitor so they can tell what's going on with my heart. They may have to do the catherization. Won't that be fun. If you were still here I could talk to you about this because I know you've been through it to and you could help me go through it.  They also want me to do a sleep study test. The night without taking my drugs to help me sleep.  There will definitely be no sleep.  They want to know what I do and I can't sleep.  Well I draw, I listen to music, I Watch shows on my tablet, I used to call you, but you're not here anymore.  No wonder I can't sleep.  I kind of wish the bogeyman would scratch my screen or grab my ankle from under the bed or even laugh that evil laugh that he has.  Oh what I would give to hear your evil laugh again.
I love you Dodo!