Hello Dodo,
And here it is again. Another 22nd. That makes 3 of them since you left. I know it's not your fault. I'm not mad at you. I do understand. If truth be told I think I may be jealous. I'm still stuck on this horrible rock that keeps spinning around and around. The sun keeps coming up every single morning and setting every single night. Quite annoying actually. Especially when all I want to do is go to sleep and never wake up again. But the cosmos has other plans. Actually G~d must have other plans. Though I can't imagine what. My heart is so cold and bitter. Talk about an ice Queen! Yeah you would be looking at her, that is if you were still here.
I know you must be angry with me Pete. I don't know how to make it up to you. If I had listened to you, none of this would have happened. I get that now. But I didn't. I called Tony and told him you were gone. I honestly was just trying to do the right thing. I know now the right thing would have been to follow your wishes. I am soooooo sorry Dodo!!!! Please forgive me. Please tell me everything will be ok. I really need to hear those words from you. I need you to tell me it will be ok kid. How do I get past this? How do I move on? I guess I never will. Because I'll never hear those words from you, ever! That is why this is sooooo very hard on me. This is why I cannot move on. Why I can't let go.
So the tears will continue to fall. The heart will continue to ache and my soul will forever be lost. It will forever search for yours. I love and miss you beyond words Dodo, my Knight, my protector!
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