Drowning in Sorrow....

I made it through Mom's birthday and the 13th anniversary of her passing, barely.   Tears were shed, more tears fell, until I thought no more could possible fall.  I was wrong.  They still continue today.  Tears, these little drops of one's agony, sorrow and hopelessness... do they ever stop falling?  Does the grief ever go away???  I need to feel alive again.  I need to laugh and to enjoy life again.  All I can do is sleep and go to work.  What's the use of going on if I can no longer find my joy?  I am so very tired!  Bone weary!  There has been too much death since December 2016.  A total of 8 deaths since then.  Two of which ripped my heart out...  my best friend and protector, my Knight in Shinning Armor, my brother, Dodo & my beloved Jazzy.  

Seriously, how much more???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????