It's another first without you here. Today I turned 58 years old. My phone will remain silent and my mailbox will have no card inside it. I didn't think it would hit me so hard. Yet, just what did I expect? I love you so much Pete. I can't seem to move on. I'm still stuck. Stuck in some sort of vortex. I'm being whipped about as in a tornado and there is no saving me. I hate this...... how do I get out of this.... how do let you go? Do I want to let you go??? NO NO NO NO NO I can't let you go. Now I know..... You... are the Vortex. You are the tornado. And I refuse to let go of you.
Yes, you are my Knight! My Protector, my spirit wolf. You are the one I can always count on. You are my steady, solid rock.
I know y'all will never understand me. That's ok. I really don't expect you to. What my brother and I have is unusual. It's a bond that most brother and sister never have. So no, I don't expect y'all to understand. But please, try to understand that it will take me a lot longer than just 8 months to get over 58 years of having my brother with me.
I love you William Henry
